Final Update
My mother peacefully passed away this morning at 5am.
She was surrounded by love and family.
Rebecca Boykin
1946- 2012
We have finalized the funeral for Monday.
I have been asked to give the eulogy.
If you would like to see a copy of her obituary, you may view it on the funeral home’s website site:
This pass week has been one of the most difficult, yet most beautiful times I have ever had. To be given the chance to spend nine days with her, to make peace with her and to help her in her final hours was something I would never trade with anyone. I held her hand, talked her through moments of distress, washed and brushed her hair and cared for her as she moved through the process of dying.
Soon we will restart our lives, return to the routines and goals we had laid before us. As we work towards our dream of opening Belle Grove Plantation, I know that my mother will be with me and will be proud of what we are doing. She never had a chance to see it in person, but knew how much passion we had for it and “saw” it through our eyes.
To every one of you who sent me love, support, hugs, prayers and words of encouragements, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to each of you. Your words helped me through one of the most difficult times in my life. I came to lean on them as I sit in my mother’s room hour after hour. Thank you just doesn’t seem enough. But Thank you from the deepest part of my heart.
To my sisters Shay and Catherine – I love you both so much. Together we have come through this past week. Thank you for being my shoulder to cry on, my guardian to tell me to eat and go to sleep. I am so blessed to have each of you in my life.
To my brother Patrick and brother-in-law Andrew- I love you both. Through your support, love and endless hugs, we have been able to get through this last week. I am so thankful for you both!
To my daughter Alexa and son Tyler – I love you both. In losing my mother and your grandmother, I now cherish our time together. It goes oh so fast.
To my husband Brett – I love you with everything that I am. You have been there to pick up the slack and to be my rock. You have carried on with what needed to be done with our business and home and I thank you for it with all of my heart.
To my mother – I love you and miss you so much. It is hard to think that I won’t hear your voice or feel your hugs again. But you have made me strong and I will go on.
May God bless you and your family in such difficult times.
Thank you so much.
Although saddened by the expected news, when the time comes it is not any easier. Your mother will be with you all in spirit and reside over Belle Grove as its matriarch in waiting.
A new chapter is ready to begin. Our thoughts are with you. xo
Jen
Thank you Jen!
It is such a gift to be there before a parent passes. My mother Rebecca died many miles away from me a few years ago. I would have loved the chance to brush her hair and just be there with her in those final hours. It is a strange feeling when your mother dies. I wish you all the best.
Thank you so much. I am so grateful for the chance I was given.
I am so sorry to hear this news, yet at the same time, it is fortunate your mom went peacefully, and for the time you were able to spend with her. This is priceless time, and it will aid in providing you comfort in the days, weeks, months and years ahead; knowing you did everything possible without regrets or what-ifs. I continue to lift you and your family during this difficult and transitioning time.
Thank you so much. I will treasure the time I had with her for the rest of my life.
My heart felt condolences, I know you will remain strong and the love and support of your family is what will keep you strong. Your Mom will see your dream come to fruition, I believe she will be with you every step of the way in spirit. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you so much. I believe in my heart she will be there.
So sad to hear the final update…….it’s lovely you were with her at the end. She no doubt was very proud of you and your husband and the “undertaking” that is Belle Grove Plantation – she’ll be in every corner smiling and watching and STAYING proud of you always.
Hugs of Sympathy for your Loss………Pam
Thank you Pam. ((Hugs)) back at you!
Such a lovely tribute to your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Your mother looks like such a poised and elegant woman. I was with my mother when she passed away many years ago; she remains in my heart today, as your mother will always be with you. You are in my thoughts.
Thank you Claire. I know that she is with me and will continue to watch over us as we move forward.
I am so sorry for your loss, but happy to hear you had this time with her. It is so wonderful too that you have such a warm and loving family and were able to support each other during this trying time. God Bless you, your family and your Mom.
Thank you so much. I am so glad my family and I were able to share in the joy and grief and to support one another through it all.
May the peace of God which passes all understanding guard your heart in Christ Jesus. May the Holy Spirit the Comforter be upon you and your family. Thank you for your ministry and strong faith in the Lord. You set an example for us all.
Love,
Bo
Amen. And Thank you so much Bo!
I am so, so very sorry for loss. There are never words enough for times like these. Bless you and your family in these days and weeks ahead. And thank you for sharing with us.
Thank you so much. It has been a great help to me to share this with you. Thank you for being there.
it is wonderful that you could spend that time with your mom and your family. Her memory will help guide you for the rest of your life. God bless.
Thank you so much. I know she will be there to help guide us to the end.
I’m so sorry for your loss. My condolences to you and your family.
Thank you so much. Your support has been very much appreciated.
Such a beautiful picture. Greatest sympathy and love to you all.
Thank you Deborah. You have been one of the most wonderful bloggers I have met. Thank you for being there to support us!
Thank you. You inspire me to keep going with my own life changing project!
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So sorry for your loss. That’s such a lovely photo of her.
Thank you so much. She was a beautiful lady.
Sending love and condolences to you and the family.
Thank you so much. We so appreciate your support!
I am so, so sorry for your loss. She is beautiful!
Thank you so much. Yes, she was quite beautiful.
So sorry to hear about your Mum. You posted a beautiful picture of her. My condolences to you and your family.
Thank you so much. I loved this picture of her. It was just a quick shot and shows her just being her.
I’m so sorry for your loss and the difficult time you have been through. When my father passed away I felt like my life would never be the same. It hasn’t been but it’s true that life does go on, just with a slightly different tone to it and those loved ones we lose are always with is in our heart and souls…
Thank you so much. I know today I have been searching for that normal place in life to return to. I know I will find it in the days ahead.
What a gift – to help her on her journey. Peace to you now, as well.
Thank you so much. I feel very blessed to be there to do it. And I do have a peace now. I know that she will never suffer again.
So sorry for your loss, but grateful you had the time with her to say goodbye. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Thank you so much Stacey! The support has just been overwhelming and we so appreciate it!
My heart is breaking right now for you. I know how you feel, I really do. May God help you through this process, my dear friend, and here is a big hug for you. hugggggggggggggg
Aw thank you so much Terry! You have been such a wonderful friend and shoulder to lean on. ((HUGS)) back at you!
Still sending prayers your way. I am sorry for your loss. God Bless
Thank you so much. We so appreciate all the support and prayers!
Our thoughts and prayers with you and your family. Belle Grove will be quite a beautiful tribute to her life and memory, but most of all you and your family are the real testimony in the way you live your lives. Thanks for sharing this final chapter of Rebecca’s journey on earth.
All the Best
Richard
Thank you so much Richard! It was just a blessing to be with her to see her to the next journey. I know that she is with those she loves and will be looking down on us.
My thoughts are with you and your extended family. It was such a gift for you to be able to spend her last days with her. I’ve no doubt she felt your loving presence and hands. God bless and keep you all.
Thank you so much! I feel that she was with us in spirit through this whole week. I know she heard me and know that she appreciated us sharing this with her.
I am so sorry for your loss, but glad you got to spend time with her. I am sure her legacy will live on in Belle Grove. Blessings to you!
Thank you so much! I know that she will be apart of my life as we move forward.
My best thoughts to you and your family.
Thank you so much! Your support is so much appreciated!
I am so sorry to hear about your mother. God bless you and your family with peaceful hearts and minds.
Thank you so much! We so appreciate all the support!
My thoughts and prayers are with you in this difficult time.
Thank you so much! Your thoughts and prayers are so appreciated!
So sorry for your loss, my condolences to you and your family, Also it has been very brave of you to share what you have been going through with all the blogging community. wonderfully written
Thank you so much! It has been a great joy in sharing this. The support has been just overwhelming!
Sending my thoughts and sympathy, Michelle. What a sweet post you wrote today, honoring your Mother and expresing your love and thanks to all your family.
The holidays will be especially difficult for you this year. I’ll continue to keep you close in thought.
Thank you Dianna! Your support has been so appreciated. We know that this holiday season will be filled with tears. Not only do we face Thanksgiving this week and Christmas next month, but her birthday is December 3rd. But we will get through it, one day at a time.
Blessings and many prayers from us in your suffering. May God bring much grace and peace.
Thank you so much! We have been so blessed not only to have been with her during her final journey but to have such wonderful friends in our blogging community.
Thinking of you. May you feel peace and love during these difficult days.
Thank you so much! All this support has really helped to get us through this!
Beautiful post honoring your Mother and your love for her ~ she’s smiling. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Thank you so much Jill! She is smiling even now. Your thoughts and prayers as so much appreciated.
How beautiful that you were there to help your mother on her journey. Respectfully, may she now find the freedom from whatever pain she had to endure, and enjoy her afterlife!
Thank you so much. I know that she has moved on to a better place and was met by those that loved her. We have such a peace now to know that she isn’t suffering anymore.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s always extra hard when it happens during the holiday season. Know that your mother will always be with you with the memories you can cherish in your heart. If you need someone to talk to don’t hesitate to drop me an email: maryannechristiano@gmail.com
Thank you so much! We are just so overwhelmed by the support of all of you! It means so much!
This is a difficult time for you and your family. I admire your courage and the grace with which you have coped with this sad time. My heart felt condolences . Virginia
Thank you Virginia! The support we have received from wonderful people such as yourself has helped us in so many ways!
If your mother was anything like you, she was a beautiful and strong woman with a big heart. My deepest condolences to you and your family. What a lovely tribute you have written. Peace be with you. Cackie
Thank you so much Cackie! I like to think that I received those from her. We have found a peace now that we know she is with those that loved her and isn’t suffering any more!
Thank you for sharing this with us – we feel we have been with you and your mother on your journey. May she rest in peace secure in the knowledge of your love and care. God bless you.
Thank you so much! You may not have known it, but you all were with me as we went through this week. It was the support and words of encouragement that kept me going even after only getting 20 hours of sleep in nine days.
May she rest in peace.
Thank you so much. She is now at peace. I know it in my heart.
I am sorry for your lost, but remember your mom will always be with you especially when you have the Grand Opening.
Thank you so much. I know she will. I have plans to place a special photo of her there so she can share it with us too.
May you find comfort in your favorite memories of your mother. You are a splendid reflection of her love for you. Hugs Galore
Thank you so much Galore! ((HUGS)) back at you! I have so many memories of her. So many to keep me going for the rest of my life.
My thoughts and prayers with you and your family. May your mother rest in peace. Send love to you, be strong.
Thank you so much Amy! All of you are helping me to be strong, not only for myself, but for my family. She is now at peace.
You have my prayers. Wish that meant more.
Sweet heart you may not know it, but your prayers mean so much to us! Thank you for all your support!
I am so sorry – it is so difficult to go through losses of this magnitude. May you be blessed as you adjust, and give you the strength to spare in the coming weeks!
Thank you so much Melody! We know the days ahead are going to be filled with love and pain of her loss. But in our hearts we know that she is with those that love her that went before her. Thank you so much for your support!
I meant to write but have not been around much. I am so sorry.
Thank you so much! These words mean so much to us! Thank you!
My condolences Michele. You were very lucky to have had the chance to be with your Mom in her last days. She will still be with you in Spirit looking over you and yours, even though it is tough not feeling their presence. Sending prayers your way ♥
Thank you so much! I will treasure every second I had and I know that she is with me, even now.
Losing a loved one is never easy…time gives us memories that last forever and beyond. Blessings to you and your family at this difficult time.
Thank you so much Reggie! These memories will be treasured for the rest of me life. Thank you so much for your support!
My condolences to you and your family.
Thank you so much! Your support has been so much appreciated!
I am so sorry. I was with my mother when she passed on two years ago, the night before Thanksgiving day. <3
Thank you so much. We appreciate your support.
I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this very sad time. I lost my mother two years ago and it was the hardest thing to ever go through. Just know your mother is an angel now and will be with you always – a love between mother and child never dies.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate your thoughts and prayers. It is so true, that kind of love never dies.
I will keep all in my prayers. God bless
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
I am sorry for your loss. The pain, the grief, and the feelings of helplessness can seem unbearable. I hope you are able to find comfort in the Bible words giving hope for all of our loved ones we have lost in death. It is good to know that even though our heavenly Father allows these things to happen, he promises us a future that is beyond what we could ever imagine.
Thank you so much. We have received so much comfort through the prayers of our pastors and those from our church as well as those from all of you.
My condolences. One way we can tell your mother was so good is by the way you carry on here, and at the plantation. My thoughts and prayers are with you in your time of loss, and when you carry on.
Thank you so much. I believe that most of what I am is from her and will carry on as she would have wanted.
Make the most of your time together as a family. Remember all the great times you spent together and look forward to the many memories that you will have in the future.
Thank you so much. We so cherish these times and now after going through this, it means so much more.
Your mother was obviously a beautiful and wonderful woman. Since I am older than she was, she was also very young, and you lost her much too soon by our human understanding. I’ll be praying that you and your family will truly experience God’s comfort during this time of pain.
Take care,
Nancy
Thank you so much Nancy. We believe that she passed too soon.
It is beyond our ability to comprehend how, in this beautiful world that God created, there can be sadness and anguish, but I do believe there is a purpose in all that happens. I myself find comfort in the idea that this world must necessarily be imperfect because it pales in comparison to the next. My thoughts and prayers are with all y’all at this difficult time.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
Thank you for sharing this hard news. May you find strength as a family to cope. My deepest sympathy.
Thank you so much Debbie. We really appreciate all the support!
So sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
May you find strength in all the memories of your Mother and always remember you are a part of your Mother and therefore she will always be with you….
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support! We really believe that she is with us.
Beautiful words! I did try to read her obituary but it has not posted yet on their sight, perhaps it will be there tomorrow. Sending my love to you and your family.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support! They haven’t placed it yet. It should be there today some time.
Big hugs and prayers to you all. xoxoox
Thank you so much Jen! We really appreciate all the support! Big Hugs back at you!
So sorry about your loss 🙁
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
So sorry for your loss. Your family will continue to be in my thoughts. *hugs*
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support! ((HUGS)) back at you!
Peace to you and her. I’m awake so late and just saw this and my eyes are tearing up. How blessed you were and to share this experience of heartfelt anguish , we thank you for that. I’m just a bit younger so I know you will miss her. Thanks for sharing and so sorry for your grief.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
My sympathy goes to you and your family.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
How beautiful. I’m so sorry for your loss. May God give you strength to get through this very difficult time.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
im sorry for your loss blog friend
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
Sending sympathy and caring thoughts your way.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
My sincerest condolences at this sad time. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Xx Paula
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
My hear goes out to you and I am sending caring thoughts your way. May God give you strength.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
Strength to you and your family in the immediate days … and may good memories help your healing. …. from a first-time visitor via Clanmother.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
My thoughts are with you and your family, I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
May God bless you and your entire family. I know your mother will be with you always, watching over you and Belle Grove.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support! I know she will be there.
Sorry for the loss of your mother – I wish God’s blessings for your and your family.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
i’m so sorry to hear of your loss.. You and your family will be in my prayers.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal. ~From a headstone in Ireland
So sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support! I think I will use that saying in the eulogy. Thank you!
So very sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate all the support!
I’m so so sorry. At the same time, despite your pain, I’m so happy for you that you were able to say “good-bye” to your mother in such a loving, special way. My thoughts are with you. Steph
Thank you so much Steph! It meant a lot to me even though it was hard to go through.
So very sorry for your loss. Beautiful picture of your mother–I’m so glad you and your sisters were able to spend this last time with her. Continuing prayer for your family.
Thank you so much Becky! You know Becky was my mother’s nickname. We were so help to spend time with her.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your whole family. It was a tough road, and I will pray for comfort and peace. I lost my mom in the month of November 1997, who lived on life support for ten days. I’ll be thinking of you and your family, and asking for you to find strength during the eulogy. You mom was a pretty lady.
Thank you so much Mary! Yes she was really pretty.
Condolences to you and your family; thoughts and prayers are with you during your loss.
Thank you so much. We really appreciate your thoughts and prayers.
Such sad news; she was such a beautiful woman. Please know my thoughts and prayers go out on behalf of you and your family.
Thank you so much! She was a beautiful person. Your thoughts and prayers are so appreciated.
That is a beautiful tribute to your mother. Wishing you peace and wonderful memories of her through the years.
Thank you so much. We have peace now that her suffering is over. We will miss her greatly, but I know she is with those that loved her and went before her.
I am so sorry for your loss but I am very sure your mother is very proud of you as her daughter! Be blessed!
Thank you so much! I like to think that she is proud of me. Thank you for the blessing.
I am so so sorry to hear of your mothers passing. I have not been keeping up with blogs I follow or updating my since my computer is not working. For some reason today I decided to log in & post using my iphone & the first thing I read was your post about your mother. Even tho I am in the funeral busines, one can never find the right words to say to someone when they have lost a loved one. But just so you know I am thinking of you & your family at this most difficult time. You may not have your mother beside you but you will always have the memories of her inside of you especially in your heart and one day instead of so much sadness, hurt and anger a smile will appear when you think of her….
Thank you so much! I am sorry that my post had to be the first one you saw. I know it is sad news at a wonderful time of the year. But we have peace with her passing now. We would rather have let her go than have her suffer as she was. But your words touched our hearts. Thank you.
My deepest condolences. May the memories and the love you share with you mom sustain you and bring you comfort. Hugs – Patty
Thank you so much Patty. We are at peace with this. We would have rather given her up than to see her suffer as she was.
I understand, I had to make that choice for my mother too, 30 years ago. She went home like she wanted to, peaceful and in her sleep with no pain or suffering.
My father passed away last year – I miss him deeply, yet I am blessed to have had him as a father. You carry your mother’s legacy in your heart. It will be with you forever as a guiding light. A friend sent me a quote by Rabindranath Tagore which spoke to me “Death is not extinguishing the light; it is putting out the lamp because dawn has come.” You are in my thoughts and prayers during this profound transition.
Thank you so much! I love the saying. I think I will use it in my eulogy on Monday! Thank you!
You will be in my thoughts…take good care of yourself!
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I am so sorry for your loss. May God hold you in the palm of his hand as you grieve. And may you find peace and comfort in the wonderful memories of your Mom.
Thank you so much. We have found a peace with her passing. I would rather let her go than to see her suffer.
Hi! I saw you had checked out my “1001 Things to Be Thankful For” blog and clicked on your page. This was the 2nd entry I read. And so, while my original intent was to say “thanks for checking out my page” (which I guess is technically being said now) I also want to express my sympathy for you and your family during this time. I lost one of my parents when I was very young, and it’s quite a process to have to go through. Just know that you and your family will get to the other side of this moment in time stronger than ever, and that your mother’s influences on you all will always be there – and truly, that is something to be thankful for!
You are so welcome! We look forward to seeing more of your blog in the future. Thank you so much for your words. They are so true and we move forward one moment at a time. We are all thankful for all the support and love we have received through our blog.
I am so sorry for your loss during this Thanksgiving season. May God’s love and comfort lift and sustain you through the coming days and weeks. You are in my thoughts.
Thank you so much. We are just overwhelmed with all the words of encouragement and prayers. We are truly blessed.
This is such a beautiful post. I am sorry for your loss, but so grateful for the time you had with her throughout the years, and recently, as she made her way from earth to eternity. Blessings, Love & Peace to you, your family and to her dear friends and community.
Thank you so much. These comments of encouragement and prayers and blessings have helped us beyond what we can expressed. We are truly blessed.
You are so very welcome. Blessings, Love & Peace. 🙂
Peace to you and yours.
Thank you Jane. Your friendship has become one that we relay on!
I am sorry for your loss. I am glad your family was with you and your Mom through her passing. I am sorry for their loss as well. May you all find a deeper love of one another as you go through this first Thanksgiving and Christmas holiday without your Mom. You all will be held up in my prayers.
Leslie
Thank you so much Leslie! We are so overwhelmed by all the love and support we have received from our blogger friends!
My Heartfelt thoughts and Prayers to your family………
Thank you so much! It really means a lot to us!
Sorry for your loss! I wish you and your family comfort and peace in the coming days!
Thank you so much! We really appreciate the support!
My prayers are with you and your family in your loss. May God’s grace, peace, and love be with you as you mourn your mother’s loss and celebrate her life.
Thank you so much! We are truly blessed!
I’m very sorry for your mothers passing. ((hug))
Loosing someone is never easy but when it’s around the holidays, it seems to add that extra touch of sorrow. At least for me it does.
Sounds like you have a wonderful support system.
Thank you for the words of encouragement and support! We are just taking it a day at a time. This year is going to be hard. Not only do we have thanksgiving but her birthday is December 3rd. But we have each other and all our blogger friends to help us through this time. ((HUGS)) back at you!
I am so very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. I hope that on this Thanksgiving day, that you are surrounded by your loved ones and that you find peace.
Thank you so much! We are all together remembering and being thankful for the time we shared with her.
Our deepest condolences for your loss. Many prayers to you and your family.
Thank you so much! We are so blessed by all the support we have received from our readers!
May all of your Mother’s memories be as blessings as she shines in the nights sky as a wonderful star.
To you and your family my sincere condolences.
I have been busy with my own family that I have not visited here often. This month one of our firefighting family members was in a sever car accident and is slowly recovering. It is had to believe that a month has already passed by and that she has been moved to a rehab hospital for at least two months.
I am so sorry to hear that! I hope she is recovering well and will continue! Thank you so much for your wonderful words!
My sincerest condolences. May she rest in peace.
Thank you so much. We have been so blessed by all the support we have received from all our readers.
I had the same opportunity with my own mother, spending her last 9 days together, next to her bed which we moved into her living room, where she had a view of the ocean and the pier. It was the hardest, but most wonderful, experience of my life. It took me a good year to get back to a “normal” life. My heart and blessings are with you and your family.
Thank you for sharing your memory. I feel the same as you do.
First, I wanted to thank you for liking my blog. Beyond that, though, I wanted to express my appreciation for the tender comments you’ve shared about your mom. They are warm and inspiring.
You are so welcome! We hope to see more of your blog in the future! Thank you so much!
Love and peace to you all. All mothers are mothers to us all.
Thank you so much. We have been so overwhelmed by the love and support of our readers.
My deepest condolences–
Thank you so much. It really means a lot to us.
So sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much! We really appreciate all the words of encouragement we have received!
My thoughts and prayers are with you! Take time to rest.
Thank you so much! We really appreciate all the words of encouragement we have received!
I am sorry for your loss. Move forward with your plans but do take time for yourself. Check out GriefShare.org, it is a wonderful site and it does help. God bless you and your family during this time.
Thank you so much! We really appreciate the support! I will check out this site today.
Here is a post I did about Griefshare http://wp.me/p1hKSW-lq
🙂 Thank you!
I am so sorry for your loss. There is some consolation in knowing that you did all that a loving family could do and that as time passes you will
begin to recall the happier times you had together.
Thank you so much! We are working towards that goal now. Just one day at a time.
I have been so far behind in my reading and tonight I was sorry to read that your mom has passed. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Thank you so much. We have received so much support from everyone. It is so much appreciated.
May her eternal Spirit continue to live in every breath you take…be encouraged!
Thank you so much for the words of encouragement and support. They have come to mean so much to me.
I had no idea and am so sorry for your loss. I am glad that you were able to find comfort along this end of the journey.
Thank you for your support. It means a lot to us!
Your mother was a beautiful woman…may God be with you in this next year…and especially the times when you miss her the most. I will pray that she sends you a sign…to let you know…she is still with you.
Because, she is.
Oh my…I’m SO sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much. You brought a tear to my eye. Just so you know, she has already sent me several. I know she is with me. It just seems harder being so fresh at this time of the year. But I will get through this. I appreciate your support.